223; A's|13 November 2009
oh no.
not getting aces, but screwing up A's.
GP essay was horribly written, i hope i don't fail.
maths- gg-fied. byebye distinction.
n the more ppl say im maths pro, cfm will do well, yada-yada.
the more upset i get.
if only binging on food, or spamming games/watching tv shows/dvds helps.
if everyday's a new day, when's the better day?
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
17:21
222; hungry? not.|01 November 2009
im supposed to be someone's sunshine girl.
but sunshine also has sunset.
cos of studies, life's been harder.
n cos idk.
mum was saying grandma was most proud of me, i was studious n everyth.
now now now. i suck in studies, quite disheartening, but maybe i sld have just studied up to sec sch.
but agn, how far can Os cert bring u?
As cert, maybe not a nice piece of doc, but hopefully i can still apply for nie. i pray,
there used to be someone who would be happy for me if i did well for exams.
but now she's gone to another world (or overseas, like what granny said).
i hope she'll see that her other grandchildren are performing even better.
ohwells. i think joeline will outshine me, i bet she'll get at least a score of 260 for psle. (:
ahh. lazy big FAT pig. you sld be studying!
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
20:40
221; teaching.|15 October 2009
heyhey. I just signed up for teaching attachment programme.
This is what I wrote for the reasons why I signed up for TAP and what qualities a good teacher should possess:
Since young, I have been inspired by my teachers to teach. Their passion for teaching, and the care and love that they have showered onto us, made me come to a realisation that I want to make a difference in students' lives. At home, I teach my younger cousins how to do their work and in school, I have been given opportunities to teach my juniors during CCA. I have also been actively involved in Grassroots activities, and one of which was the Nurture Programme. It is a Children's Storytelling Programme held weekly at the Henderson Community Club where volunteers like myself will read one or two stories to the children, help them with their schoolwork and sometimes organise fun activities for them. I feel that I want to impart my knowledge to the next generation, and lend them my listening ears. Children are often refered to as the next pillar of the nation, and I hope to be part of this sacred mission, to prepare them for future challenges. Moreover, some students may face family problems and other social problems and they have no one to turn to. I hope that I am the one who can give them a pull. Throughout these 12 years of mainstream education, I have been very lucky to meet caring teachers, and I hope the children can also meet such nice teachers who touch their lives. I really wish to help the students to the best of my abilities, so that they can grow up to become useful people who would again, contribute back to the society.Personally, I feel that a teacher has to be open to her students and always be humble. Some students can be rather shy, and I believe that teachers have a role in the upbringing of a child. If the teacher is approachable, students will not hold back their thoughts or any doubt that they might have. They should also be impartial when dealing with issues or their students, and they must uphold the principle of righteousness, because I strongly believe that the students will take after their teachers. They must always be eager to help, and encourage their students. To me, a good teacher is defined by her students. They must be humble and understanding. A good teacher never gives up on her students.
(:
any typo?
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
15:11
220; study-mode|10 October 2009
cdeuu.
sucks.
She was already aware that her prelims would turn out bad, but this is real bad. She hopes things would get better in time for the A. If not, getting CCC or worse, flunk , would just mean that she has wasted two years of her life.
She is lost sometimes. She is confused. What does she not understand? Why does she fair so badly in exams/tests? It was never like this before. She had never suffered such falls. Life had always been smooth-sailing for her. This big turn in life, has affected her. Breakdown? She tries not. But it can't help getting upset about her results. She recalled holding two green-end joss-sticks every morning before her afternoon papers, telling her late grandpa that she is going to sit for her prelims, and she asked for her blessings. But results are somewhat proportional to your effort. She failed to study hard. She deserves it. Will she make a good comeback by 'A'? She hopes so. And prays quietly in her heart. She ask not for more, but concentration.
The numerous "Don't Give Up!" from friends made her feel even sadder. She seemed to have let-down the people who care. Her mummy is worried. She asked if she needs tuition. But at this point in time, one month before the exams, will tuition help? I guess she has chosen to work hard herself.
However, her memory seems to be failing lately. She can read the OC reagents and conditions for a thousand times, and still cannot answer the questions in tests. Her maths too, she has never done so badly before. From competing to get 100% in pri. sch to getting first in class in sec. sch, she seldom fails. She wants to get through this tough hurdle, with God's grace. She, who had sinned.
She actually misses the times in ODAC, as she looked through the flame, and read her ODAC notebook, and sang the XP songs.
She digged out old NP ROD gifts, and she almost missed those perfect moments.
She will miss her class too, and she hopes to rush out a little gift for each of them. (:
She will start studying hard.
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
00:46
219; prelim's a flop.|28 September 2009
U as usual for econs.
but GP got U too.
first time ever fail GP.
n physics got into lousier band LT.
n chem got into remedial.
im gg-fied.
i just cant not think about the first prelim week.
i knew i would not do well.
but this ish really bad.
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
17:57
218; farewell-ed.|19 September 2009
oh i've been trying to post, but im lazy.
odac farewell today.
wasn't really looking forward to it.
ohwells. give ppl face. (:
anw, thankyou for planning this.
it nvr once occur to me to be emo today, perhaps i haven't done much in odac. but nvm. im reminded of rod, the demise of my grandpa etc etc. so i tot, odac farewell aint gonna make me tear more than any of the above.
i wonder how i would have survived these two years w/o jean.
hmmm. but maybe i would have clique more with the others? or maybe not. nvm, it's Over, Dun Anymore Come. (ODAC)
ohwells. maybe this time back last year, i wondered, hmmm, how would my juniors imitate me as. but nvm, they chose to imitate another person instead. i bet someone had picked my name today, n asked for a change. thanks. n for the "it's quite sad, but i dun know u well.." well, it's true, i dunno u all well either. just a friend, or fellow odacer. sadly.
till now, im still thinking of how i felt 3 weeks back. what izlim said on the cemetery behind sji during pae, tat reminded me of my grandma, tat made me tear. but i tot, things are not the same anymore. i dun talk to him now. i think he's a good fatherly figure, but TOO BAD! i wanted to send sth to him on tr's day. but tat hectic week made me forget everyth.
jc life has been fun, but maybe the darkest moments so far in my life. both my maternal grandparents left, for the beautiful heaven. m i gonna use tat as an excuse for my poor results? ohwells. 'A' had better be better. aab.
im lazy to type alrd. cya soon.
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
00:57
#217; ndc, rod! (:|08 August 2009
the reason why i wake up so early
the reason why i'm excited bout marching in sch ndc
the reason why... i went for cibtc J08
the reason became unclear.
and clear.
&i was lost for a while.
i signed up for cibtc,
n now ~400days,
im passing out...
RVNP, iLu! <3
being the only one donning the blue uniform this morn,
i did feel awkward.
but but but... the tot of the mere awe that ppl might have in us, its all worthwhile.
last day u'll see me wearing boots in this blue uniform.
yesh, it's sad to part with it.
but i'll move on. (:
i tot, we sld have CIs hand-over too, so yt n qh can fully takeover. it's your show now. jyjy! we'll be there to help if we can. (: but still, i tot the batch before us ish zai. eric alan raymong yini keeann yonghao, thankyou for your help for the past year, ur shielded us from a lot. (: last year this time, 080808, u guys passed out, but but but. it's really nice to see ur back in unit to help us. (: thankyou thankyou. and now it's our turn too soon. really too soon. leaving the two behind. ppl jy. (: rvnp gogogo with love<3 bring the cc.comp spirit on! kok n ce, u've done a lot before i became a ci, im sure ur efforts have been recognised. well done! *pats on ur shoulders. (: mx, sr, deb, thankyou for coming down today. and the food! (: rvnps2o7; thankyou! for leading the unit for the past year. u guys have really really grown a lot a lot. i feel old... incoming NCOs; thankyou for the montage, oh unglam pics. xP sec twos? ty for the gift... erm? hahas. officers; for the guidance u've given me, and the many stories that you've shared. (: THANKYOU!
ANGELCHIACAIBIN
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